teenage bass land

News of the centuary !!!!!!!!!!

So yesterday i worked until 5 and cyndi came by from her department and told me she was off at six. I said i'd be staying later to help out and asked if she wanted to smoke when i was done.
So i called her from upstairs, i said "shmag?" she said yeah we went outside, i told her my appalling stories about ottawa, and mentioned i needed to go buy replacement beers for my parents cause they count2 them. Shes like okay well blake is going to pick me up after work maybe we could drive you and then drive you home. Im like really okay cool, so i waited 15 minutes for her to get off work and blake drove us to the liquor store but he seemed pissed off doisafaaskldj cause i guess he had pizza in the oven and cyndi was like apologizing and i'm like really uncomfortable cause i was a burden ALWAYS A BURDEN 2 LIFE and so he dropped us off and drove home to tend to the pizzas. So me n cyndi were browsin the liquor store she pointed out her favorite beer and wine and said she picks wine based on how cool the lable is. I grabbed a 12 pack of bud light lime (22$ dkjfsjh now i have like 15 dollars until pay day) and blake came back and was like "you know you guys dont have to hang out a the liquor store you can hang out at the house" and i quickly said something to change the subject cause lol WORK FRIENDS DONT DO THAT SHIT and i thought it was all forgotten about and i guess blake mentioned to cyndi that he made 2 pizzas and i could come over and eat if i wanted to. So cyndi was like yo P do you got to be home right away cause blake made 2 pizzas and like i dunno who he was expecting but its up to you! and so i call tiffany and ask lolllll cause i had already invited company over for later but i was like no yeah thats cool. And so i bought a single beer that was really big to drink with dinner and we drove over there. They live in a basement suite it was like pretty nice, they have a fish tank with 4 big fish and the tank looks toO small to accomodate for all their needs but like i didn't say anything, and they have a cat they got from the animal shelter named mister handsome and i guess when cyndi comes home from work everyday she asks "is there a mister handsome home???" i thought i loved my cat too much. Anyway this cat is like 20 pounds he looks dangerously over weight i didnt try to pick him up but he was sooo nice and soft and dfdsjkjds so we ate pizza on the couch and watched tv and mister handsome ate his wet food and we watched video on trial and complained about trevor and how unbelievably shitty he is. I was also drinking my beer and had 2 pieces of pizza and they were like do you want more? and i wanted more but like didnt DARE i think asking for seconds is some how just in bad taste upon first hangout ev3r although i'd be annoyed if my guest didn't eat as much as me i dunno lol that somehow makes sense. Anyway we watched jeopardy after and i started getting stressed cause i knew tyler would be at my house soon and like lol how rude of me to be doing this, but i also didn't know how to propose that i needed to leave so soon cause i just come over to eat their pizza and leave suddenly lol anyway cyndi gave me another beer i think she might of only had one bud light lime or something but i wasn't paying attention i guess. but i drank the beer really fast iN hopes that if they saw my other beer was empty they would just assume i was drinking it at a normal pace to give illusion that time had elapsed accordingly. So tyler calls me as im sifting through a KAT VON D tattoo book i found on the coffee table and i tried to talk loud enough so they might see i have something to do and they might be like "oh do you have to go?" but i don't think they were paying attention but then i got up and cyndi asked if i needed to get going and im like yeah im getting picked up but wanna smoke before i leave and she was like YEAH but i feel bad cause i guess cyndi quit smoking like 3 years ago and only occasional smokes when she drinks but everyday at worked i ask her if she wants to and i give her one and i can't tell if she actually wants to or just doesn't know how to say "no" yet to me hahaha but yeah anyways we were outside smoking and just like talking about different stuff and tyler called me again and i said "oh its tyler. you've seen him before you thought he was my boyfriend" and shes like "oh yeah! wait, so he IS or ISNT your boyfriend?" and im like "no hes gay" and shes like "no wonder he was dressed so well!" and i'm like "yeah hes my bestbud" and then that turned into us talking about gay people and im like so do you have any gay friends? and she told me she used to until he came out and then got weird about it cause he felt uncomfortable and just like fucked off from the group and lost contact. and this is just as were putting out our cigarettes and im making my way to the gate and im like "well, you have one now!" and i wait for heR facial expression to change from chill to utter confusion and mild schock and im like "ohh you couldnt tell?" shes like "whaaaat? really? uh no, well, no i don't know im so out of the loop ohhh i feel like a douche bag kind of!" which confused me cause i didnt get why and im like "no its okay i dunno i guess i dont look THAT gay" and she said she knew these lesbians at her highschool that would get the wrong idea from her (like flirting) and she told me she was cool with them but wasnt interested. And like, to quickly deter away from any possible thoughts of HMM DOES PAULA LIKE ME LIKE THAT?? i said "yeaah. i have a girlfriend, weve been dating over a year." and she just kept saying "ohhhhhhhhhhhhh!" not in like a bad way, more in a "ohhh i see!!!' kind of way which i also didn't understand which led to me just immediately regretting everything and wanting to abort confession abort abort abort. But like i guess i wouldnt know how i'd react if i was straight and my new friend told me that, i mean i would probably be shocked and acted just like that i dunno even though it shouldnt be a big deal it just some how kind of is i guess idkkk maybe i just made her really uncomfortable. not cause im gay but like what do you say to that??? really/?? so i feel bad like i probably should have just let it come up casually another time lolol whyyy am i mulling this over so much i just feel rly baddd ughghgh and its stupid cause like SO WHAT WHO CARES but like i havent made a friend since tyler but we discovered i liked girls together, and other kind of 'new friends' i make are either apart of the gay scene and already know, or like, just know from friends of friends so this is the first time i've ever made a friend that NO one has ever heard of before you know so i've never had to tell anyone i didnt know that i was gay before lolll but like i did it cause so many times i found myself trying to talk about things that involved tiffany, but that didn't make sense because i couldnt really mentioned WHY or WHAT and it was annoying and just shitty for tiffany i guess cause shes a human and YEP. yeppppp yep so i eventually changed the subject to superstore again, found out when each other works next annnnnd left carrying my case of budlight lime and shuffled along cause i didnt put my shoes on all the way so YEP we will see lololol

how has no ones met or seen her yet..... maybe im skitzophrenic that would be sooooo nice

ummm there's half a tower of beer on the coffee table.
this house is disgusting was a pig sty, i need to go shower its zine night but i am feeling so lazy but it's so fucking nice outside omg maybe i should go get tiffany from work but what a waste of bus tickets... maybe i should buy bus tickets with the last of my money that would probably make so much sense ewwww i don't even know when B and B come home but this place is a disaster. Tuesday morning the cleaning ladies came in only to behold a sight of filth cause everyone forgot they were supposed to come and noooothing was picked up off the floors, there were dishes and soup cups everyyywhere and clothes and underwear on the bathroom floor lol they were soooo appalled they called bridget in florida to complain sooooo this should be fun when they come home omg

Next cheque$$$ money goes towards:
- rug from walmart
- more groceries
- tattoo
- march rent for B and B UGHGHG
- MORE EASTER STUFF!!!!
- moving in celebration beers
- maybe pay half of mays rent
- BBQ~!!~!~!~!!!!!

And if you wanna bump, lets go
aight, peace
-lilshowstoppa xo