YEP, I'M STILL FAT

the club can't even handle me right now...

today feels like a good day to get drunk alone! er not in a depressing way though, just for fun
this is the first time in months where i've actually been home alone allll day
if only i didn't have 4 cats...

urgh this is a mental note: PAULA YOUR STUDENT LOAN WILL NOT MAKE IT IN TIME, CALL MT. ROYAL TO LET THEM KNOW AND ASK IF THEY WILL WAVE A FEW DAYS FOR IT TO COME
OH AND PAULA GOOO SEE A FUCKING GUIDANCE COUNSELLOR OR SOMETHING TO SEE IF YOU'RE TAKING THE RIGHT CLASSES

ok this i will do tomorrow.

Hmm i feel like going on a walk err maybe i'll dye my hair or MAYBE i'll start cleaning up this dirt pig filth house.
Does wine have a lot of calories? Maybe i will have a glass of the wine i received in my broke ass care package from my best friends hmmm which reminds me today for dinner i had previously frozen spinach, that i boiled, and ate from a slightly dirty bowl.
1 more day til i get paid 1 more day 1 more day

also my dad keeps peer pressuring me to go over to his house, where he isnt even HOME, to see my grandparents and Bridget who i have not spoken to since my birthday begining of april. Like AS. IF. I told him im too uncomfortable im sorry blahblah ill come by tomorrow to bring cake blahblah and hes having none of it, which infuriates me how can he be such a jackass when i'm putting aside my pride to DEAL with something and CONFRONT him when i COULD OF JUST AVOIDED HIS TEXTS ALLLL DAY he is IMPOSSSIIBLLE
long story short, i'm not going... l.o.l.
woops looks like my grandparents won't be acknowledging me on my brithday or sending me money anymore!!! oH wait...

anyways like the clouds and the wind can fuck off now like it's been 2 weeks since there's been a day where it was nice all the way through.. not just in the morning and then changes to dirt...

anyways incase yall were wondering... YEP, IM STILL FAT

in another news lil JUDE is for sale, come get him while he's hot!