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Vebbie Harry took a short trip to California, stopped in Vancouver, and is now currently kicking ass in Lethbridge.

Today is January the 16th or something, It's like prooobably about 7 degrees outside give or take and the snow is continuing to melt making stepping outside of your door an instant hazzard.
thanks for nothing, el nineo.

Hmmmm currently i'm sitting home alone drinking beer Tyler left here
ALWAYS DRINKING BEER

Anyway, cats out of the bag guys, i'm moving out in April with Jack and Tiffany.
At first i kept changing my mind and thinking it was stupid and silly of me to think i could take on such an abundance of responsibility an shit like that.
But then i think about like, what the fuck am i doing here? Working at a dead end job?
Still not going to school? Being miserable? Paying for my own prescriptions, clothing, vitamins, toiletries, phone bill, room and board, leisurely activities?
Some people just have a better home life than i do i guess. A lot of people have a lot worse home life. I'm kind of in the middle, whatever, financially for the most part, i take care of myself.
I have to book my own appointments, get places on my own, buy everything i need by myself.
I know it might seem like moving out is a bad idea, but for the most part i think anyone who would advise against it, benefits greatly from living with parents. I get to sleep under a roof, and there is food for me to eat, as well as electricity, cable, water, and heat. I don't have genuine love or support. My dad and stepmom don't know a single damn thing about me, they don't know how to talk to me, and i'm getting tired of barely being able to just get by humoring them.
Just because i buy my own things doesn't mean i'm READY for living on my own, i understand that.
But quite frankly living here is putting a damper on my drive and motivation to do anything. At all really.
I'm 19 still living at home, with no set plans on registering for post secondary next year.
Bottom line i guess is i'm not being productive here, i'm not saving money, i'm not motivated, and i'm not about to be under this roof.
I really want to get an education, but i'm not ready right now. If i enrolled in post secondary i would probably fuck up. Mentally, i need to learn real responsibility before i waste thousands of dollars fucking up school like i spent the last 14 years of my life doing.

I mean, somehow people my age manage to afford moving out and living on their own, going to school or not. Why can't i?
I'm so sick of playing it safe and not stepping a foot out of my comfort zone and never being able to see what i potentially CAN do.
I'm sick of talking about big things, and having none of them ever really happen.

I asked my mom on her opinion and she gave it pretty honestly. She said shes a bit worried about how my brother would get by financial but i explained that if he was paying car insurance, Tiffany and i would pay the majority of the cost of rent + utilities.
She also said that she can help me out with whatever i need, and that she'll never forget how excited she was to move out for the first time. And there's nothing that can compare to the feeling of being independant and on your own.

So i'm really excited. I'm excited because i know moving out with Tiffany doesn't mean we have to get married, and stay together forever. It means that we are both comfortable and willing to make another commitment together, and we are both prepared to face whatever comes out of it.
We don't have to even sign a 1 year lease together if we didn't want to.
My brother could move out with a girlfriend or friend in the future if he wanted to, too.
I could afford living by myself if i wanted to. Nothing has to be permanent and i'm not scared anymoreee at the thought of disaster striking.
I could use a LITTLE bit of life experience. Especially if i want to successfully persue careers i'm interested in. Why not start when i'm young and able?


PLUSSS my bestfriend gets to come sleep over whenever he wants and his boyfriend could stay over too if he can't at his house! where he is welcome anyyy time and i can have box wine for my sister!

i have considered everything and ive thought about the worst and i'm willing to give this a shot.


In other news my cat is adorable skjfhalskjfskjkeekekkjld;akjf

also i have to do laundry and clean my room and its gonna take hoouuuurrss
why can't laundry do itself that would be really cool.

Ashleys bday is coming and i'm excited for ashley kayla and tyler and tibz sjsaadskjfhfdfd

LAST THING MY COLD IS GONE


WHERE IN THE WORLD IS VEBBIE HARRY?