Calories 460

I realize now I seemed poetic and mysterious and deeply a'brood because I was trying to conceal the direction and general concept/point of most things. I realize that I haven't become boring, and that leaving out details would only vindicate me for as long as I could remember things so passive aggressively for.

you know like when everyone cared, sort of, about stuff, kind of?
right

and you're like sending these sort of subliminal messages to people you knew because they would read it. but like,
you wanted them to wonder

"is this about me?..."
NOPE it's PROBABLLLYYY not
but it's an ego boost to wonder

(actually, this is about me)

And then this weird thing happens where everyone kind of grows up and they all kind of go pangaea (how clever) on everyone else, and they all split apart and form their own countries and continents in their own little worlds.
It's a totally different world now, and while they engage in the path of total exclusiveness, they inveitably exclude those who have not totally abandonned ship (or grasped the understanding) of this entire process.
Then at the same time they find new people, or keep specific ones, and they place them on this little island and then the next thing you know you're having a conversation like this:

"Have you seen Jennifer around? Is she still dating Ken?"
"Ohh, geeze, um, I actually have no idea... I haven't talked to her in a while, we don't hang out anymore really.."
"Really! that's so weird! how come?"
"_____________"

And you're like, what DID happen to me and Jennifer? And you're like, nothing, that's right.
And then you're like, that sucks the most.
nothing.
And then you feel moments or like centuries of depression and then you forget about it or something or wish you were dead or at least a vegetable so you don't have to think about stuff like that anymore or even remember anything
who REALLY wants to remember anyways?

Anyways, anyways? Anyways

"Congratulations!

On all of your skdskfdksjdslfjdsljsd
I wish you the best on all of your edeavors so dfjdsofssdf;dsfkjdsf
Hope we can dfjsoifjsdfj soon!"

Sincerely
whoooooooooooooo
caaaaaaaaaares

You can take my place, if you want

Sincerely
whooooooooooooo cares

You can take their place if you want to

Sincerely
WHO
CARES

i will struggle through life, most likely and choose not to be depressed about it and that's going to be what I live for
Trying to evade depression!

It's funny that people live with the cards their dealt, and some people are just going to breeze through live the easiest way available

I don't care what you'll live for
I don't care how much money you make
I don't care about what car you'll drive
I don't care about where you'll live
I don't care about who you'll marry
I don't care about what you'll accomplish by the time you're ___

But maybe I do
But then it's like, IF I don't care, who is going to?
And if no one really cares, then what's the fucking point?
Did you impress yourself? Because no one else CARES


This wasn't supposed to be long,
or shitty,
but it was both!

Ahhhhhh, yes

Sincerely,

whooooooooo
fucking
cAAAAAAAARES

get drunk