maylenes and the sons of disaster (gusty like the wind)

i am really itchy and tired and mad and upset and lolllllllllllllllllllllllll waaaaaaaaaaait............................................. how many FUCKING blogs have i started out with this OMG PITY ME I AM SO SAD AND LONELY AND CRAZY PITY ME GUYSSS SCRATCH MY BACK THEN FEEL SORRY FOR ME PLEEAASE!!! AND WHEN YOU DON'T FEEL SORRY FOR ME I'LL KEEP GETTING CRAZIER AND GO AROUND LIGHTING BRIDGES ON FIRE
I'LL SAY HEY GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GOING TO GO LIGHT THIS BRIDGE ON FIRE!!!!!!!!!!
GOING TO GO LIGHT THIS BRIDGE ON FIRE AND JUMP OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ugh digging yourself out of something you dug yourself into is always a reallyyyy, really annoying task to come by, i'm sure you all know what i'm talking about.
its like weeding a garden like you don't HAVE to weed it and you know how tedious and annoying its going to be and how long it takes to do and how much effort you have to put in to see little results for a long time.. but if you don't!!.. it's just going to get uglier and worse every day you ignore it. Then your anger and resentments (that aren't even ANYTHING REAL THAT YOU JUST NEUROTICALLY MADE UP IN YOUR HEAD) eventually destroy all the pretty things you have/had available to you.

In this life like weeds, you're just a rock to me.


I have my five days booked off in July, San Fransisco seems enticing lately

boy i sure hope i cheer up soon before i go absolutely fucking nuts lol

morning!