swipe!

why is it that no one is ever online on the rariety of me being high?
it calls for an occasion, a celebration of my idiocy!
1 week and a half since i vowed never to smoke weed again, but here i am, chillin
at least this time my legs still work, and my heart isn't beating like a rabbits
still really twitchy and shaky though, i don't like it but its not a big deal

i remember when esmerelda, cara, charles, and i used to smoke weed quite a bit
and it was always fun, i never was shaky or felt like a hot cat was sitting on my chest
it was hilarious, everything was a big joke, and time went by really slowly and it was always funny to notice it, especially while eating.
we used to smoke weed and go walking around at night and it was fun
i could smoke weed on a spare and go to class and be functional
why is it now that when i smoke weed i get upset and cold and nervous and really shaky and drained out?
even later on when i would smoke weed with ashley or her friends, it was FUN

i hope i don't have skitzophrenia
i hope i spelt that right

speaking of all the stuff... i really miss being 16/17 when i had a lot of friends and liked doing things


hMmMMMMMmmmMMmm