today i have not left my bed but like thats the same as every day i guess
human contact at this point seems pointless to start again
except i need a job, and maybe if i have a job consuming my every waking existence
ill have a real excuse to be sad, but it wont feel as shitty and ill explain how that works another time
I couldn't even get out of bed to hang out with my dad today but maybe i'll just go over there for the weekend or something i mean that actually might be more fun
than living in my hole in the wall room occasionally getting up to pee
but i applied for jobs last night a lot working from home and maybe i need to like GET out because im sure being trapped in four walls everyday is real great from the self loathing part of wanting to die
i feel as good as this tattoo looks,
just kidding i feel like this:
just kidding this breaks my heart more than anything:
bring me back bring me back bring me back
i would take living with dragonqueen at age of 17 again to go back, any day, but maybe i'm neurotic and lifes always sucked this bad
i'm really glad like 1 person reads my blog otherwise GuLllHuuLLl
anyways i'm going to go do homework now
c u later blog
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